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Tuesday, April 24, 2012

God has been really really good to me =) and He still is.. =)

goshh i dont even know where and how and when to start this whole dilemma/problem..

let me jux say very briefly that.. im glad.. im glad that this is happenin to me.. i wouldnt hav learnt/learn so many things.. it has been really extremely tough.. and it still is.. everytime i think im gettin better, it strikes back again.. and it reminds me that im still fighting.. im still in battle.. im not done wit it yet..

lol.. it sounds like im talkin abt a thing.. when in actual fact its myself.. somethin inside me..

i know through this.. God is lifting me up to the next level of relationship wit Him.. an even better one.. like nethin b4.. i've been worried that i cant stay in love wit Him long enough.. coz it always has been like that.. like im very fervent for Him and then i lost the passion.. but He reminded me that His love is unlimited.. heyy unlimited.. its impossible to not stay in love wit Him.. and i've realized that its not His problem that i 'fell out of love' wit Him.. its always myself.. too caught up in life.. no time for Him.. no actual time spent wit Him.. i've found out that the more one knows God, the more you'll love Him.. its automatic.. =)

freedom

freedom from this

God's plan for my freedom from this is better than i can imagine

and i need to listen and obey and persevere and hang on.. for the joy set b4 me i need to persevere and surrender it all to God and follow Him.. coz really.. He's the only way.. i've failed on my own tooooooooooooooo many times.. everytime i thought i've got it.. i fall again.. lesson learnt.. tooooo many times over and over again.. to the point where i felt i was not worthy of Him anymore.. and that feeling of being outside, being against God, felt very super extremely horrible..

but

God is so full of grace and mercy and faithfulness..

God is really really patient wit me.. He forgives sooooooo many times.. and still hangs on wit me for so long to finish this up.. gosh i jux cant say it all now.. need to really sit and reflect and type.. =) but through it all (and more to come).. God's love is indescribable.. and He is personal and very much real =)

Thursday, March 22, 2012

i feel scared all of a sudden.. whyyy.. =/

that weird there's-nethin-wrong-wit-anythin-but-still-feels-horrible feeling

mayb its pms..

i want my mommy.. ='(

Lord.. why? ='(

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

time to revive my blog! =p

actually im writtin this for myself to recall this in the future..

had one of the best family vacation ever last week =) 8th till 11th of march 2012..

i've been sayin that we need a family vacation since im leavin soon.. and we came across these air asia promotions.. indecisive where to go at first, mom choose chiang mai..

we booked the cheaper flight which was b4 esther's holidays started.. we went on thurs.. which cost esther's maths and moral exam.. and some scoldings from the school vice principles for me and mom when we went to her school to sort things out..

actually the whole trip started off really horrible with tons and tons of arguments..

mom and sis booked the air asia flight by themselves.. and didnt know abt the whole sky bus thing that they paid for.. we always drove and parked at the airport especially when we've got dad's car.. but havin paid the sky bus, we had seats paid for to go to lcct at kl sentral.. oh ooo.. major problem.. coz if we drove to lcct we still had to pay for parking fees.. after a lot of arguments the night b4 the flight, we decided to drive since it would b cheaper overall if we had to park at kl sentral..

and.. mom and sis booked the hotel themselves on9.. i went for joggin that time and jogged back jux to remind them NOT NOT NOT to book the hotel until we've seen more and comfirmed the places that we would go.. but when i came back, they said they've booked.. then we argued.. there was the cancellation button.. but it was non refundable.. we said nvm la book edi jux go only la no choice.. then.. esther went and click the button.. oh ooooooo.. our room was cancelled.. wit no refund.. major panic.. we tried to call the agency agoda but apparently no one was in.. we called the hotel who said they had to confirm wit agoda.. and the next day we called agoda and they said they had to confirm wit the hotel.. after a few days only everythin was settled and we got our room back.. wit no extra charges.. thank God! =)

we were also worried abt the room capacity.. coz they stated that one room for 2 ppl only.. wat if we had to pay for an extra room coz we hav 4? =o wat if the room wasnt big enough? but honestly thank God.. the bed was so big.. it fit the 4 of us nicely =)

on the 8th mornin.. our flight wat at 6.55am and we were to reach chiang mai at 8.45am.. as we were flying over chiang mai, the haze was sooo terrible that we were flyin in circles in the sky for abt 30 min to an hour.. wit the pilot informin us whether the air traffic allowed us to land.. finally he said we had to divert to chiang rai to land.. sooooo.. we flew to chiang rai for abt 30 mins.. i thought we could leave the airplane when we landed.. but nooooo.. we were all stuck in the plane at the chiang rai airport for abt 2 hours.. all of us pacing up and down.. hungry.. bored.. HUNGRY! we were like criminals.. illegal ppl.. who couldnt leave the plane coz we werent approved to do so..

finally.. literally FINALLY.. we flew back to chiang mai.. we reached at abt 12.30pm.. the driver who was supposed to pick us up left (obviously) so we took the cheaper 120 baht airport taxi to star hotel..

the weather was super hazy.. due to the burning somewhere in thailand..

we reached our small hotel.. but thank God for the absolutely lovely room.. =) wit LCD tv and super big bed..

w/o resting we left for LUNCH.. we asked the door guy where was the restaurant that uncle poy sin recommended which was nearby.. and we walked there.. the food there was reallllyyyy good! =) and super cheap! we had 4 main big dishes that costs only rm65+.. takin in account of the expensive-big lookin restaurant, this was cheap! =)

then we scouted for taxi to the zoo/aquarium.. coz esther said we promised.. at first we asked for the red taxi.. he charged 100baht.. then we decided to ask a cab.. he charged 200 then 120 baht.. we argued again and were super indecisive.. walkin in btw the two cabs.. makin the drivers annoyed as well.. and finally choosed the cab since it has air cond..

we reached the zoo/aquarium.. and since we had super limited time (2 hours) and money.. and the zoo entrance is inseparable from the aquarium.. only esther and i went in while mom and dad waited outside.. the zoo is superrrrr big! =O since we actually only wanted to go to the aquarium.. we took the mini van.. we passed the elephant and stopped to feed it (we didnt)..

excitedly we went in.. i was sooooo happie! =p i was more like the kid compared to esther.. seriously.. i was wowing and ooing and pointing at everythin.. while esther was so engrossed in her camera.. it was a lot of fun really.. all the AMAZING creatures that God created made me realize how seriously amazing my God is.. He is so super creative.. and to think that He made all these creatures so amazingly.. jux puts me at awe.. =)

and it was really really fun wit esther.. we were ooing at so many things =p especially in the tunnel.. we saw the sharks and fishes and turtles.. and she also was amazed.. =)

we came out and waited for the van.. for quite some time.. then we stopped at the middle stop to look around for the animals.. we saw big fat animals like tiger, lion, jaguar, cheetah etc.. we walked all the way to see the birds but to no avail.. no birds geh.. =/

and esther was really cranky and wanted to go back.. so we left after only abt 1.5 hours..

we bought a 10baht strawberry cup outside the entrance.. and took a red taxi back to star hotel for 80baht.. and oh my.. didnt we regret that so much.. it was soo hot! and apparentely it picks up more ppl on the way.. the 'nice driver' stopped us at some random place and told us to walk back to our hotel.. which was WE DUNNO WHERE! we asked the pharmacist and walked.. and walked and walked and walked and walked AND WALKED! for abt half an hour.. =(

when we were back we were so tired and annoyed at the fact that we paid 80 bahts and had to walk so far and w/o air cond..

after showering we went out to the night market super nearby..

i had one food on my mind.. MANGO STICKY RICE! =)

after refusing the seafood restaurants.. coz mom said she wanted hawker stalls not big restaurants.. we stopped by a small stall.. and.. bought..

MANGO STICKY RICEE! =) =) =)

and it tasted awesomeeeeee! =) for 50 bahts..

esther and mom bought fruits shakes at 30 bahts each.. we walked out of the 'market' area and scouted for hawker stalls.. i spotted a mini one behind the stalls.. next to burger king.. and we ate there.. noodle soup for us 3 and tomyam for dad.. and it was awesome! =) clear soup thai noodles and meat stuffs etc.. niceee.. satisfied =)

then we walked the night market and the place is actually like petaling street actually.. everyone selling almost the same things.. bargain lo.. and we could actually bargain up to 70% =p

mom and i bought silk pjs.. and we had them at 800 bahts when it was actually abt 1800 bahts =p

we went to a food court.. and ate roti banana wit choc.. which was actually roti canai wit banana and choc.. not bad =) at 30 bahts..

then mom passed some thai ladies eatin mangso sticky rice which looked really nice and asked them where to buy.. then we bought another pack from an aunty at 70 bahts.. this was nicer and we had a whole fresh mango! =) we ate this at mcd where dad and esther went.. we had ham and cheese pie and ice creams as well.. and get this.. the vanila cone is only rm0.70 =) while the oreo mcflurry is only..... rm2.90! =O

2nd day..

we went to mae theng elephang safari! =) at first we picked up a few ppl.. all together our tour had 13 ppl.. =O when we reached we started off wit rafting along the mae river.. us 4 plus grace from taiwan plus 2 jap.. front and back of the bamboo raft got 2 ppl.. coz the weather was kinda hazy we couldnt enjoy the view as much.. we even got to raft the raft! =) i washed my hands in the river water coz the toilet had no water =O the water was colldddd! and ltr on we saw somethin floating in the river and only to realize that it was elephant poop.. lol.. the ride was abt 45 mins.. it was sunny.. and we chatted away wit grace..

then.. we went for the elephant show.. as talented as the elephants were, i wat thinkin abt how much they had to go through to b like this.. how much trainin and pain.. but none the less they were smart animals =) and they reallyyyy know how to paint.. even better than me! =p

when you giv them food they'd gobble them up but if you giv money they'll pass it to their masters.. =o smart smart! =p

then we went for buffet lunch.. very very niceee! =)

then ox carting.. the 4 of us in a cart wit a lady in front.. we named our white and brown ox ding and dong =p after a bumpy ride up.. we took the elephant ride down.. dad and mom.. me and esther.. dad and mom's elephant's name is FUMBO! =p =p =p (jumbo from dad and fifi from mom =p).. we had this decided in the hotel.. sooooooooooo funnie! =p me and esther's is named resame (sesame from esther and raisin from me).. so ironic.. we already said resame was ironic for an elephant coz it sounded small.. then even more ironic coz fumbo sounded big.. =p

resame was the only elephant that had big long husks.. and when we were in the river.. grace and the girl from china's elephant put its trunk behind me and esther when they were close and huffed out air.. eeee.. elephant breath! =p then we gav it a sugar cane =) and resame's sugar cane and bananas were all fed by the guy ridin him on the way.. coz it was hot, me and esther used the red broken umbrella on the way =)

mom was soooo scared of riding the elephant since like forever.. and she indeed was screaming a lot.. =p

the whole trip was really good.. fun and enjoyable =)

at nite we walked to the largest market.. wararot market.. it was more of a wet market.. although it really was big.. the 3 didnt like it.. so we went again to the chiang mai nite market.. this time we had our dinner at the food court.. we ordered mango sticky rice, fried rice wit crab, fried noodle wit egg, fried rice wit pineapple, watermelon juice and mixed fruit juice.. then we walked around more to buy bag, and shirts.. we finished up at mcd again.. this time we ate mcflurry, ice cream cone, fillet o fish, roti banana wit nutella.. yuuuummm! =)

esther really wanted hagen daaz though =p

3rd day..

morning.. me and mom went out for breakfast.. dad and esther went to eat some porridge the day b4.. so we wanted to try tooo =)

we ordered two porridge and a plate of yao za guai and a plate of coconut something that a lady was selling in a cart next to us..

apparently.. this stall was famous for pig insides soup wit rice.. wit all the intestines and blood and wat not.. eeeeeeee.. ><

then i learnt that ppl buy breakfast/snacks for the monks who walks around.. they would take off their shoes and kneel and present their food.. the monks would then pray for them..

ltr on we went to doi inthanon national park.. this time we had 9 ppl in total.. we walked up the stairs.. took some photos.. saw the worship place.. and then went to the souvenir part.. we used the highest toilet in thailand =p esther drank hot choc wit fresh milk.. then we went to the king and queen's pagoda.. dedicated to them for their 6oth bday by the royal airforce.. the flowers were beautiful! =) in the pagoda they had these buddha stories and all.. we spent too much time in the queen's area.. especially in the garden..

then we went to the lil market.. we bought rashberries and berries and black rice..

then we went to the waterfall.. not bad la.. =) it was named after the queen i think?

then we went for lunch.. lousy lunch compared to the past day.. we had long beans, tomyam soup, virgin chic fried egg, mixed vege.. not nice actually..

the next waterfall was within walkin distance.. and wow did it now wowed me and esther.. it was soooooooo preetyy and big! very very super nice and windy.. we took so many pix here.. esther took a lot of pix of the waterfall.. mom was too lazy to come up to see..

then we went back.. they dropped us off at the sat nite market.. but we were too early.. it was only 4 + and most of the stalls were only starting to open.. esther kept complainin that we should go back.. but i said we should wait at a restaurant for the stalls to open then we could walk.. we bought fresh mango to eat.. a man was selling wit a cart.. very nice =) then esther bought her twist potato.. then we stopped at the chic rice shop to wait and we ate the chic rice and rashberries..

then we walked.. we wanted to eat there but didnt.. me and mom bought ice cream in bread from a lady pushin a mini cart.. it had peanuts.. nice! =) esther bought spagetti.. then me and mom bought waffle wit choc and choc waffle wit chesnuts.. niceee! =) then we bought the crispy thing for koinos.. then.. we went to eat a bowl of beef noodles while findin out how to go back.. after debating to walk or ride and how to go back (while i was regrettin eatin so much waffles for dinner), we finally took a tuk tuk back to the hotel.. esther sat on my lap on the side.. hahhaa... fun ride! =)

we were sooo exhausted.. after some rest.. esther and dad went to the nite market for fried rice wit crab again while me and mom went for massage near the hotel.. at first it was packed.. so we walked around.. and scouted for souvenirs for my cg peeps.. we managed to find a whole sale place and bought them.. nicee =)

then we went for the massage.. thai massage.. for 250 baht each.. a bigger sized lady massaged me.. ironic.. lol.. halfway through.. mom said this wasnt wat she wanted.. she asked whether we could change to oil massage.. they said we couldnt.. only after one hour thai massage then only can do oil massage.. then ltr on.. they were like 'shhh.. sample sample..' they took the oil for oil massage and started to massage me and mom differently.. i was sayin 'sample sample' so loudly to mom whom i thought didnt heard wat they said.. then they were like shhhhh.. hahhaha.. it was so ticklish.. i kept laughinnnngggg.. =p mom was like shhhhhhhhhhh.. =p

so we had both thai and a taste of oil massage.. niceee =)

4th day..

we woke up really early.. 5.30am coz the van would come at 7 to get us to the airport.. flight was at 9.30.. me and mom had the american breakfast.. which doesnt look as bad as it seems.. while esther and dad didnt want to..

sighh.. couldnt believe how fast time passed.. we were goin home edi =(

i saw the shortbread in the airport.. the one from scotland.. esther had her surprise one slice of pizza on the airplane.. and thank God that we didnt experience any pain at all for both flights.. although durin the first arrival.. i felt pain near my eye ball.. =O i did not know that pressure that would hurt =O

anyways.. it was a reallyy really good holiday.. one of the best.. coz we didnt argue much and everyone literally got along really well =) thank God for this awesome-possibly last family vacation..

Monday, December 5, 2011

haha.. woah.. its been so long since i blogged =p

lot of stuff goin on.. especially personally.. but all in all.. i can summarize to say that God is indeed good =) no no.. God is awesome! =)

although i cant see or hear anythin super obvious.. its really comforting to know and being told by pastor durin altar call that He's here wit me through it all.. through it all =)

through it all =)

no one said that it would b easy.. i doubt so too.. but God's dealin wit me slowly but surely.. =)

Monday, November 21, 2011

cant believe that im goin from anorexia to bulimia =O

i repeat.. no more undereating/overeating.. especially overeating.. okie fine especially undereating.. no no.. i say both.. coz the former triggers the latter..

omg.. so so so so so so so uncomfortable.. =O >< >< ><

never again.. JESS! NEVER AGAIN SHALL YOU TORTURE URSELF LIKE THIS..

i hav lost all appetite for EVERYTHING.. not even dim sum is appealing AT ALL..

still tryin to find out the root of the problem.. like seriously..

and.. i shall keep reminding myself this : love God love life love others and love urself =)

I AM OFFICIALLY SO DANG FULL THAT I HAV NO SUITABLE WORDS TO EVEN EXPRESS

honestly.. i hav a very strong urge to purge.. not becoz i feel guilty but more of a way too full stomach that cant contain.. ><

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

eatin an amount of medication like candy ><

i sooo want to cut my throat off.. can it not b this torturous? ='(

oh Lord, pls help me ='(

Monday, October 24, 2011

im gonna take my last day of sem break to write this post.. =p ahh.. where do i even start?

this sem break had been a really really good one.. very fulfilling.. very meaningful =) okie although i did spent a few/quite a number of days chilling/(dying of boredom) at home.. it was very meaningful.. a lot of first time-s =)

get ready for a superrrrrrrrrrrrr long post =p

so allow me to break this into points:

1. firstly.. i met up wit an old high skol bestie.. wan jing.. went pavi wit her.. watched johnny english, makan etc.. hadnt hung out wit her for ages =p

2. after she left.. watched a movie ALL BY MYSELF for the FIRST TIME! =) i watched cars 2.. nice.. was indecisive btw planet of the apes and cars 2.. but decided to watch a cartoon coz of the humor =p and no.. watchin a movie alone is NOT saddening.. its fun.. all the more fun when the whole cinema had only like 6 ppl includin me =)

3. went to taylors lakeside to giv another old bestie, janine, a bday suprise! =) all thanks to amelia.. i had promised to go lakeside to visit her for months but didnt get to do it until 27th sept =) had an awesomeee time of steamboating wit my two old besties (jan and cwen) and mr suren and amelia and cyndy (new frens =) ).. and i got to eat the awesomest homemade cheesecake ever! =) and i got to watch a live interactive magic show right in front of me.. =O as in one guy performing jux for the group of 7 of us =) tried very hard to see through his tricks but i guess im jux too slow to catch it.. suren was laughin all the way.. hmph =p went to play pool after that.. hadnt played for months =p

4. i managed to read finish 3 novels =) hehehe.. the time traveler's wife, the last song and for one more day.. all also very very nice! =) but the only down side is to read one book after another so soon made me got a bit mixed up wit the characters and the stories.. hahhaa.. but a tiny winy bit only la =p chilled a lot at home doin this.. sittin on the sofa facing the green garden.. ahh the absolute bliss =)

5. went to spend a few days wit my grandma at her house.. =) it was lovely to spend the day there for the first time w/o studying.. jux chill, watch tv and chat wit my grandma and the maid.. had many conversations wit her.. and i managed to dig out a few stories abt her past, her marriage, etc.. she never stopped lovin me since young.. last time i used to spend my weekdays after skol at her place.. so after so many years the right thing to do would b to spend more days wit her in return =) btw i used to play around wit animals like chickens and dogs and cats there =p

6. a week after i spent some days wit my grandma.. she was admitted into the hospital.. she was there for 17 days.. in and out of icu.. in again and again was becoz she was too weak to survive when she came out of icu.. was a very worring period.. let me elaborate more.. =)

she was at first admitted into the hospital coz she couldnt urinate.. they said she had urinary tract infection.. then one day i went there to take care of her.. ltr that day she went for a CT scan.. then found out hours ltr that her intestines burst.. and she needed surgery immediately.. my mom and aunts were super worried.. coz its like way toooo risky for a surgery but she needs it.. they were decidin whether or not to take the chance.. the doc said to leave it w/o surgery, she may pass away in abt 3 days.. to go for surgery she might jux pass away on the surgery bed.. in the end she went for surgery.. but we had to wait for her super weak heart to b stable first b4 surgery.. so the docs gav her some meds and all in the icu..

after spending the nite til 3am in the hospital.. we decided to head back home to rest.. after half a day stabilizing her heart.. she went in for surgery that morning at abt 10am..

we were all really really worried.. coz she is already so super old.. she almost cant walk at all anymore.. she had a weak heart and body.. the doc said its a super high risk surgery as she may not wake up from the anesthetics.. or hav other infections etc.. but the worst is to think that she might not hav the will to live anymore.. since she's always in so such physical pain and old edi..

ltr on we found out that it was her appendix that had burst.. and thank God she woke up half a day ltr.. =) thus begun the in and out of icu procedure.. and one day she even went unconscious.. that was scary =O

but thank God seriously that now she's at home.. still on the bed.. but gettin stronger =) i totally admire her faith in Jesus.. b4 she went in for surgery, we were all prayin for her and she was like yes yes Jesus pls help me.. she knew that her hope was really on Jesus.. it really touched me to see even despite all the pain and uncertainties, we all know that we hav a future eternity life wit Jesus.. no matter wat, we still hav hope in Him =) and to see that first hand how it feels to be so close to death, the realization really really hit.. =)

i can tell you one thing.. my grandma.. is really the strongest person ever(mentally).. literally =) i admire that abt her a lot =) amazing..

and our God is simply jux amazing! =) i was readin the Bible durin the first few days after surgery..

according to James 1:27 - Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

and when she was unconscious, i was like 'God, you said widows and orphans.. so im gonna claim this promise.. that i can still take care of her and she will survive this.. she will b ok..' and she did =) this recovery and testimony of my grandma proves how great is our God! =) and that His promises stand =) and God made me realize how selfish i am..

7. i met sarah roberts and lydia gan in the hospital.. =p sarah was working there and lydia was doin her masters attachment there.. soooo coincidental that i met them one after another on the only day i was there.. =)

8. first time goin to the hospital soo many times

9. first time seein sooo many ppl in soooooooo much terribly awful pain.. i think the saddest ward is the old ppl's ward.. coz its like.. the end edi.. to live a bit longer or not to live.. kesian gao =( and realizin that you may feel that you're jux a doc carryin out ur job.. but to the patients and their families, you're all the hope they hav..

10. how scary it is to walk alone in the basement of the hospital and seein the bilik mayat sign.. to then only realize that you're definitely on the wrong floor.. =p

11. to get lost at nite in the hospital! =O =O =O

12. baked a loaf of bread! =p and fyi it was good okayyy =p

13. played wit esther an old imaginary game i used to play when i was young =p

14. i got an attachment in the pharmacy of watson's klcc! =) after waitin for the whole sem to get a job.. i finally managed to get this durin the last 2 weeks.. =) and this was totally a proof of God's will.. =) had been prayin for the most suitable job for me.. was thinkin of being a waitress and all.. but when i declined hukm's offer.. i started to email retail pharmacies.. and the very next morning.. the lady called.. =O i applied for 3 locations from watsons.. and now i can say thank God that He gav me klcc.. the perfect place literally.. coz they had like 80% foreigners there.. perfect to prepare me for uk.. =) learnt a lot durin my time there.. and thank God i came here instead of a hospital =) thank God for the ppl there as well.. =)

i was really worried on the nite b4 my first day.. coz its my first job ever.. at first i was really excited then i started to think a lot.. lol.. but God is ever so awesome again =) on fb i subscribed for msges from God a few days ago.. then the msg for that morning was 'if you see a job, take it, its yours'.. =) i was like =O =O =O!!! and devotion that nite was 'do not worry'.. when i first saw the title for my devotion, i was like 'oh Lord =)'.. God is soooooo indescribably awesomeeeeeeeee! =) =) =)

15. i drove in a massive traffic jam home! =) now who said i couldnt survive in a jam huh? =p

16. took the lrt from klcc back.. and i had 3 encounters that proved God's timing is PERFECT =)

(i) on the first day of the lrt ride, my mom was fetchin me from the station near her office.. but not sure wat time exactly.. i tried to call her the whole day but apparently her hp's batt died.. so i waited til quite late in klcc then decided to jux take the lrt back.. since first time take lrt from klcc all by myself, i was nervous abt a lot of stuff.. lol.. after changing stations etc, when i arrived at the destinated station, when i jux seriously ngam ngam stepped out of the lrt, my mom called.. =O

(ii) this time my dad was fetchin me.. i was supposed to go to another station.. so as i stood in front of the lrt map figurin out how to go, when i ngam ngam stepped away to go buy tix, my hp vibrated.. i checked.. eh my dad smsed and called me awhile ago and i didnt realize.. apparently he changed the location.. God's timing =O

(iii) as i queued at the super long line, i decided to sms my dad to tell him i was gonna leave klcc edi.. then he told me to wait.. i was like 'wait at the station? for wat?' so i called.. i was up next at the queue.. so i gav my space to one lady behind me.. then my dad told me to wait at klcc.. and this all happened jux seriously right b4 i was goin to buy my tix.. God's timing =O

17. went for my first book fair =) awesomeeeee! =) big bad wolf's book fair.. although its my first, i know that its really good.. most of the novels were rm8! =O grab-worthy! =p but i only bought 2.. coz the total looked a lot so i cut a few books away =( all thanks to esther.. seriously =) she entered this contest on fb.. where you create a wallpaper to win preview passes for two.. as in we get to go in the fair a day earlier.. and she got it! =) we went together.. sat the bus in that area and all.. niceeee experience wit lil sis.. hehee =)

18. after muet's speaking, i rushed to klcc to work.. i was at kp.. as i stood by the busy road waving and waving, i realised its seriously not easy to catch a cab =O most of the cabs were always occupied.. so i stood there for like more than 15 mins.. tellin myself oh patience patience.. coz i prayed for a good cab coz i dont wanna get kidnapped and all =p wait wait wait.. sigh.. impatient edi coz i was seriously very late.. then one drop of rain fell on me.. i looked up and said 'OH NO NOT NOW! =('.. at that precise moment, a cab pulled over! =O yet again.. God's timing is wayyyyyyy awesome! =)

19. went for another movie alone =p watched real steel wit salad and corn after my last day at watsons.. a way to reward myself.. good movie good food.. i was a very very happie girl =)

20. met a malay guy at watsons.. woah.. leng zai! hahhahhaha.. seriously.. his eyes are sooo prettyy =) and another malay guy who kept calling me ah moi.. lol.. =p sigh.. some ppl that are in ur live jux for awhile.. and most probably you'll never meet them again..

21. went for one hike after sooo long.. =O missin those days when i could go hikin so easily =)

22. went for supper wit church peeps for the first time after church cg =)

23. went to see jayesslee!!!!! =) went to see them for FREE at city harvest church.. awesomee.. that church is so big =O and janice and sonia are really talented and sweet.. thank God for these kind of ppl and events.. where a lot of non christians come to see 'celebrities' and get saved in the end! =) praise God for these ppl =)

24. drove out for lunch wit cwen.. ehhe.. first time drivin her around and hav lunch wit her =)

25. seriously thank God for my uni results.. i prayed for at least a 70 for both physiology.. i was really doubting it coz i barely passed my class test.. but God reminded me again like how He did for SAM - trust in Him.. its better to trust Him than not to at all.. trust in wat you've prayed for that He'll give it to you.. and true enough.. He blessed me wit both 70++ =) =) =)

26. chatted wit my old maths tuition teacher (who's my neighbour) after so long.. met her when i went joggin jux now.. she was the one who helped me get A+ for both maths in spm.. =O it was literally impossible.. i used to fail my maths paper.. LOL =p thank God thank God for everythin =)

sigh.. =) all in all.. all glory to God.. for every single thing.. He made this break a really good one =)